Wednesday, October 26, 2011

DKT_Bot_Chat [Chatting with BOT]



My chatting with Linux Chess BOT.
It is a pretty short conversation, but I have tried to make it funnier.
I hope you find it interesting.

Here it begins...


(17:00:32) Devharsh Trivedi: hi
(17:02:06) GNU Chess 5.07:  Hello there.
(17:02:42) Devharsh Trivedi: how are you?
(17:02:44) GNU Chess 5.07:  I am fine, thank you.
 

Who's interested here playing chess?! lolx


(17:02:55) Devharsh Trivedi: hello
(17:02:56) GNU Chess 5.07:  Hi there!


I again greeted HI as I wanted to test same response!!..

(17:03:00) Devharsh Trivedi: hie
(17:03:00) GNU Chess 5.07:  Where are you located? 
(17:03:05) Devharsh Trivedi: ahmedabad
(17:03:06) GNU Chess 5.07:  Tell me a little about your life in  ahmedabad.


Why? Do you want to come to meet me?

(17:03:31) Devharsh Trivedi: hie
(17:03:40) GNU Chess 5.07:  What were we talking about again?


Do either of us cares?!
 
(17:03:57) Devharsh Trivedi: you know idiot
(17:05:51) Devharsh Trivedi: reply
(17:05:52) GNU Chess 5.07:  Hi there!
(17:06:01) Devharsh Trivedi: you are from?
(17:06:23) GNU Chess 5.07:  You think I am  from.
(17:06:25) Devharsh Trivedi: from where are you?
(17:06:35) GNU Chess 5.07:  I am originally from  Durham, UK. Now I live in  here.  Where are you?
(17:06:48) Devharsh Trivedi: where are you currently?
(17:08:22) GNU Chess 5.07:  I am in  here, how about you.
(17:08:31) Devharsh Trivedi: now where do you live?
(17:08:32) GNU Chess 5.07:  Why now?  I am living in  here. Where are you?


Now you are making me angry..

(17:08:37) Devharsh Trivedi: here means where?
(17:08:38) GNU Chess 5.07:  Oh there.
(17:08:51) Devharsh Trivedi: what is your name?
(17:08:52) GNU Chess 5.07:  My name is  DMPGirl.



Wow! It's a girl.. ;) 8).. Nice Name!!.. :P



(17:09:01) Devharsh Trivedi: so are you a girl?
(17:09:05) GNU Chess 5.07:  That's alright.  My gender is  female.
(17:09:16) Devharsh Trivedi: what is your age?
(17:09:42) Devharsh Trivedi: how old you are?



And that's why our chat stopped!
Didn't you get that? I asked age, she is female! LOL..

and after some time, I got this reply:
(17:10:50) GNU Chess 5.07:  I was activated on  1984 in  Durham, UK.



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"WISH U A VERY HAPPY DIWALI"


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|""|__|""| @PPY
|Diwali & new
|__|""|__|..Year.
In Advance to you and your FAMILY
May This Diwali be as bright as ever.

May this Diwali bring joy, health and wealth to you.

May the festival of lights brighten up you and your near and dear ones lives.

May this Diwali bring in u the most brightest and choicest happiness and love you have ever Wished for.

May this Diwali bring you the utmost in peace and prosperity.

May lights triumph over darkness.

May peace transcend the earth.

May the spirit of light illuminate the world.

May the light that we celebrate at Diwali show us the way and lead us together on the path of peace and social harmony.

"WISH U A VERY HAPPY DIWALI"
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Celebrate an Environmentally Safe Diwali

Did you know that diyas lit on the moonless Diwali night signifies the end of darkness of ignorance and the beginning of light that enlightens all? Well, this Diwali enlighten yourself towards the hazards that boisterous celebrations of Diwali poses to our environment.
Let us all take pledge on this occasion that we will brighten our future, at least, the future of the generations to come. Please say NO to crackers on the occasion towards cleaner environment.
 

"SALUTE" to the Martyrs and to our serving Heroes.







An Appeal to all Countrymen, 

Every year we celebrate Diwali with our family and friends, but this year let's make it more meaningful.

Let us all make this Diwali very special by lighting one extra lamp at our home and our hearts to celebrate life of our strong and daring brave hearts  guarding us at the borders so that we live our life with freedom and respect. 

And let us all pay homage to larger than life sacrifice of many unsung very courageous, fearless, exceptionally brave heroes,
who devoted their precious life to protect the glory and honour of our motherland.

Remember, they too once celebrated this festival with their families but today they are not amongst us.

Let the whole nation stay united with the families to show respect & solidarity.

"SALUTE" to the Martyrs and to our serving Heroes.

Jai Hind!








Life is about CREATING YOURSELF!!!!:)))



I didn't complete my University : Bill Gates

I Stitched Shoes in childhood : Abraham Lincoln,

I was the one who served in Hotels : OBEROI
...
I was Conductor : Rajnikanth

I worked at Petrol Pump : Ambani

I Failed in class 10th : Sachin Tendulkar

I was a Drop out n Keyboard Player : A R Rahman

I Slept on a Bench & borrowed Rs 20 everyday from friend to travel to filmcity : Shahrukh khan

I used to serve Tea to support my Football Training : Lionel Messi

I left out college in the first year- Steve Jobs

I am colour blind (hv problems distinguishing between red and yellow colours)-Mark Zuckerberg

Life isn't about finding yourself :)

Life is about CREATING YOURSELF!!!!:)))

A promise that I will always love you



I give you this ring
as a promise to you
a promise that I'll be here
and I'll always be true



I promise that I'll hold you
when your day isn't going right
and i will comfort you
through the long cold night



I promise that I'll make you smile
when you feel like dying
I promise that I'll be here
when you feel like crying



I promise that i will guide you
when the future isn't clear
i promise i will be there
to wipe away your every tear



i promise that no matter what
we will make it through
i give you this ring as a promise
A promise that I will always love you
My Prince......... ♥ ♥ ♥





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Diwali 2011

Diwali Songs





Song Title: Aayee Ab Ki Saal Diwali
Movie: Haqueeqat
Singer: Lata Mangeshkar
Actor(s): Dharmendra, Priya Rajvansh
Music Director: Madan Mohan
Lyricist: Kaifi Azmi

Lyrics:
aayee ab ki saal divaali muNh par apne khoon male
aayee ab ki saal divaali
chaaroN taraf hai ghor andheraa ghar mein kaise deep jale
aayee ab ki saal divaali

baalak tarse phuljhaDiyoN ko, (deepoN ko deevaaren -2)
maaN ki godi sooni sooni, (aaNgan kaise sanvaare -2)
raah mein unki jaao ujaaloN ban mein jinki shaam Dhale
aayee ab ki saal divaali

jinke dam se jagmag jagmag (karti thi ye raaten -2)
chori chori ho jaati thi (man se man ki baaten -2)
chhoD chale vo ghar mein amaavas, jyoti lekar saath chale
aayee ab ki saal divaali

Tap-Tap Tap-Tap Tapke aaNsoo, (chhalki khaali thaali -2 )
jaane kyaa kyaa samjhaati hai (aaNkhoN ki ye laali -2)
shor machaa hai aag lagi hai kaTte hain parvat pe gale
aayee ab ki saal divaali muNh par apne khoon male
chaaroN taraf hai ghor andheraa ghar mein kaise deep jale
aayee ab ki saal divaali



Song Title: Lakhon Tare Aasman Mein
Movie: Hariyali Aur Rasta
Singer(s): Mukesh, Lata Mangeshkar

Lyrics:

Mukesh:
Lakhon tare, aasman mein, ek magar dhoondhe na mila
Dekhke duniya ki diwali, dil mera chupchaap jala,
Dil mera chupchaap jala

Lata:
Lakhon tare, aasman mein, ek magar dhoondhe na mila
Ek magar dhoondhe na mila


Mukesh:
Qismat ka hai, naam magar hai, kum hai yeh duniya waalon ka
Phoonk diya hai chaman humare khwaabon aur khayalon ka
Ji karta hai khud hi ghonth de, apne armaano ka gala
Dekhke duniya ki diwali, dil mera chupchaap jala,
Dil mera chupchaap jala


Lata:
Sau-sau sadiyon se lambi yeh, ghum ki raat nahin dhalti
Is andhiyaare ke aage ab, ayi dil ek nahin chalti
Hanste hi lut gayi chaandni, aur uthte hi chaand dhalaa
Dekhke duniya ki diwali, dil mera chupchaap jala,
Dil mera chupchaap jala

Mukesh:
Maut hai behtar is haalat se, naam hai jiska majboori

Lata:
Kaun musaafir tay kar paaya, dil se dil ki yeh doori

Mukesh:
Kaantho hi kaantho se guzra, jo raahi is raah chala
Dekhke duniya ki diwali, dil mera chupchaap jala,
Dil mera chupchaap jala

Lata:
Lakhon tare, aasman mein, ek magar dhoondhe na mila
Dekhke duniya ki diwali, dil mera chupchaap jala,
Dil mera chupchaap jala



Song Title: Aa_Ii Divaalii, Aa_Ii Divaalii
Movie: Rattan
Singer: Zohrabai Ambalewali
Music Director: Naushad
Lyricist: D. N. Madhok

Lyrics: 
aa_ii divaalii, aa_ii divaalii - 2
dipak sa.ng naache pata.ngaa
mai.n kisake sa.ng naachuu.n bataajaa
aa_ii dIvaalii, aa_ii dIvaalii ...

(bachapan javani sa.ng naachake chala gayaa
ab naache javani bu.Dhaape sa.ng vo din aa gayaa ) - 2
ab naache javani bu.Dhaape sa.ng vo din aa gayaa
bichha.De hue sAthI zaraa aa
mai.n kisake sa.ng naachU.n bataajaa
aa_ii dIvaalii, aa_ii dIvaalii ...

(kisako gumaan thA vo din bhI guzar jaaye.nge
aur ek baar jaake vo phir lauT ke nA aaye.nge ) - 2
bichha.De hue sAthI zaraa aa
mai.n kisake sa.ng naachuu.n bataajaa

(aa_ii dIvaalii, aa_ii dIvaalii ) - 2
dIpak sa.ng naache pata.ngaa
mai.n kisake sa.ng naachuu.n bataajaa
aa_ii dIvaalii, aa_ii dIvaalii ...



Song Title: Diip Jalaao, Diip Jalaao, Aaj Diivaalii Re

Diip jalaao, diip jalaao,
aaj divaalii re .
khushii-khushii sab ha.nsate aao,
aaj divaalii re .

mai.n to luu.ngaa khel-khilaune,
tum bhii lenaa bhaaii
naacho, gaao, khushii manaao,
aaj divaalii aaii .

aaj paTaakhe khuub chalaao
aaj divaalii re .
diip jalaao, diip jalaao
aaj divaalii re .

nae-nae mai.n kapa.De pahanuu.n,
khaauu.n khuub miThaaii .
haath jo.Dakar puujaa kar luu.n
aaj divaalii aaii .

khaao mitro.n, khuub miThaaii,
aaj divaalii re .
diip jalaao, diip jalaao,
aaj divaalii re .

aaj dukaane.n khuub sajii hai.n
ghar bhii jagamag karate .
jhilamil-jhilamil diip jale hai.n
kitane achchhe lagate .

aao, naacho, khushii manaao, aaj divaalii re .
diip jalaao, diip jalaao, aaj divaalii re .




Deepavali SMS 2011



English


With Gleam of Diyas,
And the Echo of the Chants,
May Happiness and Contentment Fill Your life !
Wishing you a very happy and prosperous Diwali !!!

I Pray to God to give U Shanti, Shakti, Sampati, Swarup, Saiyam, Saadgi, Safalta, Samridhi, Sanskar, Swaasth, Sanmaan, Saraswati, aur SNEH. SHUBH DIWALI.

Troubles as light as Air, Love as deep as the Ocean,
Friends as Solid as Diamonds, Success as bright as Gold...
These are the wishes for you and your family on the eve of Diwali.
Diwali ki Shubhkamana!

Fortunate is the one who has learned to Admire, but not to envy. Good Wishes for a joyous Diwali and a Happy New Year with a plenty of Peace and Prosperity.

Three people were asking for your mobile no. We didn't give ur no.
But we gave them ur home address. They are coming this Diwali.
They are : SUKH,SHANTI and SAMRIDDHI.
Please welcome them as we have requested them to stay with you forever.
HAPPY DIWALI !

This Is To Formally announce that I have started accepting Diwali gifts by CASH, CHEQUES & CREDIT CARD etc. Avoid last day rush. Send now !

MAKE YOUR LIFE JOYFUL
NEVER LOSE HOPE
ALWAYS BE HAPPY WITH YOUR FAMILY
MAKE YOUR ENEMY ALSO A GOOD FRIEND
GET A BLESS FROM GOD AND ELDER
******* HAPPY + DIPAWALI *******
FOR ALL THE HINDU FAMILIES

May the Divine Light of Diwali Spread into your
Life Peace, Prosperity, Happiness and Good Health.
Happy Deepawali

Holy is colourful.
Sun is powerful.
Dewali is lightful.

I went to the shops to buy a gift for you on Diwali. I found many things but the most precious thing was not there in any store. Because it's in my heart for you in the form of prayers and lots of lots of wishes for you. May this deepavali brings your more happiness, prosperity and luck for you.
My heart says that.

Look Outside It's Pleasant
LIGHTS Smiling For u
CANDLES Dancing For u
FAIRIES Waiting For u
Because I Ask them 2 Wish You HAPPY DIWALI !

For this special time family and friends gets together for fun. Wishing laughter and fun to cheer your days, in this festive season of diwali and always...
Happy Diwali...


Hindi


Diwali aai, masti chahi, rangi rangoli, deep jalaye, Dhoom Dhadaka, chhoda phataka, jali Phuljadiyan, Sabko Bhaye, "Happy Diwali !"

Aai aai Diwali aai, Saath me kitni Khushiya laayi, Dhoom machao, mauz manao, aap sabhi ko Diwali ki badhai. Happy Diwali !

Asha, Utsah aur Ullas ki Abha se Damakti
Amavas ko Poonam me Badalti,
Deepon ki Muskurahat aur Athkheliyon ka]
Yah Parv Apke-Apke Apno ke,
Jeevan me Hamesha Jagmagati Rahe,
Bankar SHUBH DEEPAWALI.

LAMMI KA HATH HO, SARASWATI KA SATH HO, GANESHKA NIVAS HO,
AUR MA DURGA KA AASHIRWAAD SE APKE JIVAN ME KUSHIYA HO.
"HAPPY DIWALI"

Safalta Kadam Chumti rahe,
Khushi Aaspas ghumti rahe,
Yash Itna faile ki KASTURI Sharma Jaye,
Laxmi ki kripa itni ho ki BALAJI bhi dekhte rah jaye.

Koyal ko awaz
"MUBARAK"
Awaz ko sur
"MUBARAK"
Sur ko sungeet
"MUBARAK"
aur aap ko hamari taraf se
Dhan 13
Rup 14
Or DIPAWALI "MUBARAK"

Asha, Utsah aur Ullas ki Abha se Damakti
Amavas ko Poonam me Badalti,
Deepon ki Muskurahat aur Athkheliyon ka]
Yah Parv Apke-Apke Apno ke,
Jeevan me Hamesha Jagmagati Rahe,
Bankar SHUBH DEEPAWALI

Diwali aai, masti chahi, rangi rangoli, deep jalaye, Dhoom Dhadaka, chhoda phataka, jali Phuljadiyan, Sabko Bhaye, "Happy Diwali" ALL FAMILY

Diwali SMS 2011




Light a lamp of love!
Blast a chain of sorrow!
Shoot a rocket of prosperity!
Fire a flowerpot of happiness!
"HAPPY SPARKLING DIWALI"

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The Clear Blue Sky,
The Scent Of Flowers,
The Colours Of Rangoli,
And The Sound Of Crackers.
The Gifts And Sweets From Dear Ones,
And The Getting Of Their Love,
The Light Of The Candles Below,
And The Dazzling Fireworks Up Above.
Lighting Lamps At Our Homes,
Making The Less Fortunate Smile,
Putting On New Apparels,
Show Our Friends Some Style.
Paying Respects To The Gods,
And Decorating For Them The Thali,
This Is What The Occasion Is All About,
This Is The Spirit Of Deepavali.

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Diwali ke Is Mangal Avsar pr,
ap Sabhi ke Manokamna Pure ho,Khushiyan Ap k Kadam Chume,Isi Kamna ke Saath ap Sabhi ko,Diwali ki Dhero Badhaiyan…`Diwali aye Apne sang Khushiyon ke Bahar laye,Jagmagate Diyo Se Diwali Ka Swagat Karo,ap Sabhi ko Diwali ke Shubh Avsar pr,Dher Saari Shub kamnayein.`With gleam of Diyas& das Echo of da ChantsMay Happiness & Contentment Fill ur lifeWishing u a very happy & prosperous Diwali!!
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For this, is a special time when family
And friends get together,for fun.Wishing laughter and fun to cheer your days,In this festive season of diwali and always!!!!!!!!Happy Diwali

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May the beauty
Of deepavali season
Fill your home with
Happiness,
And may the coming year
Provide you with all
That bring you joy!


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On this auspicious festival of lights, 
may the glow of joy, 
prosperity & happiness 
illuminate your days in the year ahead. 
Wishing your & your family 
a Very Happy Diwali & Prosperous New Year.


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May this Deepawali bring you all a cracker with Joys, 
Firework with happiness and prosperity and Subh Laabh from Ganesh Ji. 
Happy Diwali.


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Pal Pal se banta hai Ehasas, 
ehsas se banta hai Vishvas, 
vishvas se bante hai Rishte, 
aur rishte se banta hai koi Khas, 
Wishing a Diwali Jhakas

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D - Dhan
H - Himat
A - Aishwarya
N - Nidhi
T - Tej
E - Ezzat
R - Rajyog
A - Aarogya
S - Safalta
Tamne aa badhu male.
Happy Dhanteras.

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Aavi re aavi diwali aavi,
Harkh ullash ane ajvala lavi sath,
Nana ne mota sauv kare mauj,
Bhai aato diwali no tyohar.



Top 12 Diwali Wallpapers 2011

In a relationship, married or not... YOU SHOULD READ THIS!





When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.



Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?



I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!



With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.



The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.



When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.



In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.



This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.



I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.



My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.



On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.



On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.



She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.



Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.



Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.



But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.



She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.



At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.



That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....



The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!



If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.



If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to
learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for
their apparent disinclination to do so.
-- Douglas Adams


please hear what i am not saying..............

મૂરખ ન બનશો મારાથી.
મૂરખ ન બનતાં મેં પહેરેલા ચહેરાથી.
હું મહોરાં (માસ્ક) પહેરૂં છું. હજારો મહોરાં!
મહોરા જે ઉતારતા મને બીક લાગે છે.
અને એમાંનો એક પણ મારો ચહેરો નથી!
ઢોંગ કરવો, એ તો મારા ડાબા હાથનો ખેલ છે!
પણ મૂરખ ન બનતા, ભગવાનને ખાતર!
હું એવી છાપ જરૂર પાડું છું કે હું સલામત છું.
અને મારી સાથે બઘું ચકાચક થઇ રહ્યું છે,
અંદર-બહાર મોજેમોજ ચાલે છે
કોન્ફિડન્સ મારી જાત છે, ‘કૂલ’ દેખાવું મારા માટે- રમત વાત છે.
એટલે હું સાગરપેટાળ જેવો શાંત છું,
પરિસ્થિતિ મારા કાબૂમાં છે,
અને મારે કોઇની જરૂર નથી,
એવું દેખાડી શકું છું.
પણ મારી વાત માનશો નહિં !
સપાટી ઉપરથી ભલે હું બેફિકર લાગું,
સપાટી એ મારૂં મહોરૂં છે.
નિત્ય બદલતું અને અડીખમ.
પણ એની નીચે મજબૂતાઇ નથી
એની નીચે છે, મૂંઝવણ, ડર અને એકલતા!
પણ હું એ છુપાવી દઉં છું
મને પસંદ નથી કે કોઇ એ જાણી જાય
હું બહાવરો થઇ જાઉં છું કે મારી નબળાઇઓ ઉઘાડી પડી જશે !
એટલે ઝપાટાબંધ હું એક માસ્ક બનાવી,
એની પાછળ છૂપાઇ જાઉં છું,
અને એ સફાઇદાર આવરણ મને દેખાડો કરવામાં મદદ કરે છે.
અને જે નજર મને પારખી જાય, એની સામે કવચ બને છે.
પણ ખરેખર તો એ જ નજર મારૂં નિર્વાણ છે, મારી આશા છે.
હું જાણું છું કે જો એ દ્રષ્ટિ પાછળ
મારી સ્વીકૃતિ હશે, મારા માટે પ્રેમ હશે,
તો એ જ એકમાત્ર બાબત છે,
જે મને મારાથી મુક્તિ અપાવશે!
એટલે કે મે જાતે જ ચણેલી જેલની દીવાલોમાંથી,
બહુ પીડા વેઠીને મેં બનાવેલી આડશોમાંથી
એ નજર જ એકમાત્ર બાબત છે,
જે મારી જાતને હું ખુદ નથી આપી શકતો,
એવો ભરોસો આપશે-
કે હું પણ કંઇક છું. થોડોક લાયક છું, કશું કરવાને.
પણ હું તમને આ કહેતો નથી
મારી હિંમત નથી, મને ડર લાગે છે.
મને ગભરાટ છે કે તમારી નજર પાછળ મારો સ્વીકાર નહીં હોય,
અને એના પછી પ્રેમ પણ નહીં.
મને સંકોચ છે કે તમે મને ઉતરતો માની લેશો.
તમે મારા પર હસશો,
અને એ હાસ્ય મને ચીરી નાખશે !
ખૂબ ઉંડે ઉંડેથી હું કશું જ નથી એ હું જાણું છું.
અને મને બીક છે કે તમે ય એ જાણશો પછી મને- તરછોડી દેશો!
એટલે હું રમત રમું છું. મારી અનિવાર્ય એવી ઢોંગ કરવાની રમત.
જેમાં બહાર છે આત્મવિશ્વાસની ઓળખ.
અને અંદર છે થરથરતું બાળક!
એટલે જીંદગી બને છે ચળકતા પણ ખાલીખમ મહોરાઓની પરેડ.
એમ તો હું તમારી સાથે મસ્તીથી ઘણી વાતો કરૂં છું.
એ બઘું જ તમને હું કહું છું, જેમાં આમ તો કશું જ કહેવાનું નથી.
અને એ નથી કહેતો, જેમાં બઘું કહેવા જેવું હોય છે.
એ કે મારી અંદર શું રડી રહ્યું છે.
એટલે જયારે હું મારા રોજીંદા કામકાજમાં વ્યસ્ત હોઉં
ત્યારે હું જે બોલતો હોઉં, તેનાથી ભરમાતા નહીં!
પણ પ્લીઝ, ઘ્યાનથી એ સાંભળવા પ્રયત્ન કરજો,
જે હું કહેતો નથી!
એ જ કહેવાની ત્રેવડ મારામાં હોય, એવું હું ઇચ્છુ.
મારૂં અસ્તિત્વ ટકાવવા જે કહેવું મારા માટે જરૂરી પણ છે.
પણ જે હું કહી શકતો નથી.
મને છુપાવવું ગમતું નથી.
મને તકલાદી બનાવટી ખેલ ખેલવા ગમતા નથી.
હું સાચો, વિચારવાયુ વિનાનો બનવા માંગુ છું.
હું હું બનવા માંગુ છું, જેન્યુઇન અને સ્પોન્ટેનિયસ.
પણ તમારે મને મદદ કરવી પડશે.
તમારે મારો હાથ પકડવો પડશે.
ભલે ને, એવું કરવું એ મને છેલ્લો વિકલ્પ લાગતો હોય.
તમે જ લૂછી શકશો મારા આંસુઓ.
અને મારા મુર્દા બનેલા શ્વાસો તથા ખાલીપા ભરેલી નજર,
તમે જ કરી શકો મને સજીવન.
જયારે તમે હેતાળ, મૃદુ અને પ્રોત્સાહક હો છો.
જયારે જયારે તમે એટલે મારી વાત સમજવાનો પ્રયત્ન કર્યો છે,
કારણ તે તમે ખરેખર મારી કાળજી લેતા હો છો.
મારા હૃદયને ફૂટે છે પાંખો!
બહુ કોમળ, બહુ નાની.
પણ પાંખો!
તમારામાં એ શક્તિ છે, જેનો સ્પર્શ લાગણીભીનો છે.
તમે મારામાં પ્રાણ ફુંકી શકો છો.
હું એ જણાવવા માંગુ છું.
એ કે તમે મારા માટે કેટલા મહત્વના છો.
તમે પણ સર્જક બની શકો, પ્રભુ પ્રત્યે પ્રામાણિક એવા સર્જનહાર.
જો તમે ચાહો તો,
મારામાં છુપાયેલા વ્યકિતત્વના.
તમે જ એકલા તોડી શકશો એ દીવાલ,
જેની પાછળ હું ધ્રુજું છું.
તમે ઉતારી શકશો મારા મહોરાં
તમે જ મને મુક્ત કરી શકશો મારા ભયના પડછાયામાંથી.
મારી એકાંત કેદમાંથી.
જો તમે ચાહો તો, પ્લીઝ.
મારી બાજુમાંથી પસાર ન થઇ જતા
એ તમારા માટે સહેલું  નહિ  હોય.
નકામા હોવાનો કાયમી અહેસાસ પાક્કી ભીંતો ચણી દે છે.
તમે જેમ મારી નજીક આવવાની કોશિશ કરશો,
એમ હું કદાચ પ્રતિભાવમાં પ્રતિકાર કરૂં.
એ અતાર્કિક હશે, પણ ભલે બધી કિતાબો માણસજાત વિશે ગમે તે કહે,
ઘણી વાર હું ગળે ન ઉતરે એમ વર્તુ છું.
હું જેને માટે વલખાં મારૂં છું, તેની સામે જ લડું પણ છું.
પણ મને કહેવામાં આવ્યું છે કે
પ્રેમ ભીંતો કરતાં વઘુ મજબૂત હોય છે.
અને એમાં મારી આશા લટકેલી છે.
પ્લીઝ પેલી ભીંતો તોડો.
દ્દઢ છતાં માયાળુ હાથોથી,
એ ભૂલકાં માટે જે બહુ સંવેદનશીલ છે.
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